I have personal some changes I’m going to implement. Some things that have be the results (I think, for the most part) of the past few years.
One, I want to start looking at what I do have, versus what I don’t have. I used to be an optimistic person, and although I still an to a degree, I think about alot of “don’ts”.
Another thing, I want to work on claiming independence. Becoming capable of being alone. And in the right way. I don’t know if I even have a problem with it anymore – But I want to be able to be okay on my own. I think I’m okay even already – but I don’t know if hanging around on my computer is a great answer or not.
I also want to figure out being on my own when I’m out and not being protected by “my guy”. I don’t want to be the pushover who just quietly ducks away when a guy hits on me. Cosmo says that learning that “toughness” more assertive reactions can help me keep from being victimized by something more than just comments.
This month I pay off the last of the ten grand of debt from the marriage. After that I get to work on my credit card… I should have that taken care of in a couple of months. Then I guess my goal is to have a savings stash. Maybe I’ll pay off my car while I’m at it. Honestly, I don’t know how to have more money that needed to survive. It’ll be so nice though to not have to live paycheck-to-paycheck.
On the lighter side of things, we’re going to go see Dido on Wednesday. Its sure to be a phenomenal show. Barenaked Ladies are the first of August.
Tomorrow I get my cable modem installed.